We All Go a Little Mad Sometimes

I love horror movies. People keep asking me why. "Why would you watch something scary, why would you want to be scared?" they wonder. I don't think I've ever given anyone a proper answer.

      I've always been fascinated by scary things. My mom never actually denied horror movies from me, but as a child I didn't get my hands on any horror flicks so I didn't have a chance to watch them. So I read stories instead. I borrowed all the kids' horror books several times from the local library and I read them again and again. 

The Usborne Book of the Haunted World by Caroline Young used to be one of my favorite books.

                                          

Grizzly Tales for Gruesome Kids used to be my favorite television show. It's actually quite hilarious!

I wasn't safe from horror movies for long since I have an older brother who would always show me the scariest scenes from the horror movies he was watching. I remember I was never scared, I just laughed. Gosh, that makes me sound so disturbed. 

      By the time I reached the age of ten I had read pretty much all the books from series like Goosebumps and The Nightmare Room. One of the very first horror movies I saw from the beginning to the end was The Grudge. I was about ten years old when I saw it and, I gotta say, even today that's the movie I'm afraid of the most. The Grudge movies aren't very good movies in general, but at least the first two scared the crap out of me. Maybe it's because I first saw them when I was so young or maybe it's because I instinctively draw back from white ghostly women with long black hair and a nightgown, who knows. However I'm traumatized for life by Mrs. Kayako. 

      Surely you're waiting for my answer to the question already. I am going to answer, but I just wanted to tell you that my love for horror is not a recent thing. It's more like I was born this way, baby. Actually the truth is that I don't even know myself for sure why I like horror so much. I've been thinking about the reason and I have a couple theories. 

1. The adrenaline. 

Even though I'm not too shaken by horror movies, I'm still a little bit...on the alert. (Can I say that, is that correct?) I notice that while watching horror movies, and a few hours after, I'm much more sensitive to movements and sounds. I feel like I can see every little flake of dust and hear even the most silent noises. It's a very nice feeling. 

2. Interest in movies.

I like movies in general, not just horror movies. However horror is my favorite genre and I figured it's because it's the most difficult one. At least I think it's the most difficult one. I've seen a lot of horror movies, but only a few were actually good. Why? Because it's so damn hard to create a movie that scares the crap out of people, but still holds an interesting and clever plot. Oh so often horror movies only have the other or, sadly even more often, neither. It's like a hunt for the king of horror movies. The feeling of discovering a scary horror movie with a brilliant plot it amazing.

3. Facing your fears.

"Fight your fears and you'll be in battle forever. Face your fears and you'll be free forever." You can never win your fears, they will always be there. Although you can learn to live with your fears and it's easier if you face them first. I'm not so fond of this theory, because I don't think it applies on me. At least I've never thought "well, I'm afraid of dolls, let's watch a horror movie about dolls" just to accept my fear. 

What kind of movies you like to watch? Why do you think you prefer that genre? Let me know!

Talk to you soon!

- Sara

Do what I do. Hold tight and pretend it's a plan.

I have a very fickle personality. I decide something, but then I come up with a better option and change my mind. This is not a good thing, especially now that I'm almost finished with my sixth form studies and I should basically decide what I want to do with the rest of my life. Still I'm not really stressed out, because...I don't know, I just don't get nervous easily.
My policy of life has always been not to worry too much, because everything will work out eventually, one way or another. "Don't give up" and variations are such cliches, even though they are definitely true and fitting to my life policy. Also stuff like "don't give up" makes up an image of fighting to get your way, but that's not it. I prefer going with the flow and letting life go its own way. This doesn't mean that I don't plan things. I plan everything, I love making plans. Still things don't usually go as planned, so I really like to think "hold tight and pretend it's a plan".
Okay, enough babbling. Here are some pictures from the past few days.

I was going to meet up with my mom the other day and I waited for her at the library. I had just enough time to read some poems by Oscar Wilde and let me tell you, I felt really sophisticated! 

And this is what I look like when I wake up...just kidding. I wanted to make myself look old with makeup and this is the result. Flattering picture, right?

In Finland, normal school ends in February for seniors. Then we have a couple of weeks off so we can study all day for the final exams. Just before this "studying holiday" the seniors dress up in costumes and drive around in the back of big trucks throwing candy to children. It's a tradition in schools all around the country. I got my costume yesterday and you can already guess what I will dress up as.

Of course I had to try out my Phantom costume. Add a proper makeup to this and it will be awesome!

Now that the winter has properly arrived, I'm living off of tea. I physically can't go a day without tea. After walking home from school I am completely frozen and it feels like I have icicles hanging from my bones. That's when I just need tea to melt me so that I can function again.

Don't catch cold guys!

- Sara

Nothing Burns More Than the Cold

Hello there!
I think it's winter when the weather gets cold and for a few days now it has been freezing. So I can say now that the winter has officially arrived.
Here are some random pictures from this winter-week!

On Friday my school's costume theme was Greek gods. I decided to go as Hades and this is how my face looked like. The eyes are wicked, don't you think? I scared my religion teacher with them, oops!

I got an early Christmas present! My mom asked me what I wanted for Christmas and since I didn't have much makeup brushes, I asked for them. Mom ordered them online, they arrived Thursday and I asked if I could open the packaging already. Well, as you can see, I opened it. 22 Coastal Scents makeup brushes! I am so excited about this kit!

Me today, heading out for some shopping.

I just love it when stores have decorated for the holidays. So beautiful!

Orchids are amazing, they are actually my second favorite flowers in the world.

Song of the Day (I used to listen this when I was a kid and I hadn't heard it in many many many years. Today it was on radio and I just realized that -strangely- I still love the song.)

Would You Love a Monsterman

Just a short update,

talk to you soon, bye! 

- Sara